The Wandering Jews

"Not all who wander are lost"

Today I was filled with dread as I realize that it is Novemeber 4 of 2008 and my lease is up on my home on December 31st of this year.

Why was I filled with dread ?

Because up till now I have no "Plan B". No place to move into, no roof above my head that I may call my own. I will be homeless.

This is not because I dont have money to pay rent or a job to support myself. It is because many other causes have been calling my attention till now. Now I feel the pressure to find a place to live. All day my mind is filled with thoughts of finding a serviceable domicile in which to dwell.

I start asking friends as the people I have contacted who have property have not returned my phone calls. I feel increasingly anxious as the day goes on. I tell my friends, I"I must look for a place to live" as I run out the door. They yell good luck and I am off like a shot. Meanwhile I have commitments to keep and people with whom I must keep agreements. The day becomes one blur as one event blends seamlessly into another.

I am tired and hungry, it is time to go home and lick my wounds. I give one final phone call to my first choice apartment to rent. The phone rings.... a person answers. Hello, is this so and so ? Yes this is she. I immediately explain who I am and why I am calling, during their dinner time, and that I apologize for the intrusion.

My call is well received. (Thank god for good manners) I have scheduled a meeting to look at the apartment of my choice. I feel a sigh of relief come over me. I will have a place to live come January 1st of 2009. I am saved. I am home now. I shower and remove the day from my flesh. I begin to ponder...

Now I understand what my ancestors felt as they wandered through the desert for 40 years with no roof over their head, and no home to call their own. The European Jews in exile with no homeland or place to call their own until recently. The Shylocks and Merchants of Venice or Spain or London.

Being homeless is a scary proposition for anyone. But to be a people in exile like the Dalai Lama and the people of Tibet. This is very unsettling. They have been dispossessed by the Peoples Republic of China. The Dalai Lama sent for the Jews of the United states to teach him the secrets of a people living in exile.

Most of all, you have to have faith in yourself and you have to make your way in the world no matter what your circumstance. We make our own lick. There is no substitute for persistence and perseverance. We are all homeless when we die. We have no body to return to and the universe becomes our home. Where do we belong ? Amongst those who love us. When we find love and acceptance, then we are truly home.

I am learning

I am beginning to learn that I am much greater than what I see with my five senses

I am learning not to fear
I am learning I am not my body
I am learning that I am a multi dimensional being
I am learning that it is safe to travel outside my body
I am learning that by raising my vibration I can travel between dimensions
I am begining to remember who and what I am
I am learning that I am an immortal being
I am learning that there is no death
I am learning that the universe is a wonderful place
I am learning that we get what we think about
I am learning that we are vibrational beings
I am learning that nothing is more powerful than love
I am learning to be free

I am learning that we access to infinite guidance
I am learning that when we leave our body that people want to talk to us
I am learning that people who are non physical are waiting to talk to us
I am learning that when we learn to leave the body we become interesting
I am learning that we have a choice where we go when we leave our body
I am learning that we are 22 dimensional beings
I am learning that we have an lower Astral Body and a higher Astral body
I am learning that we have access to different dimensions as we learn to raise ouf vibration

I am learning who I am
I am learning that when I decide who I am that I limit what I can be
I am learning that there is nothing I can not do, be or have
I am learning that we are our thoughts
I am learning that we attract what we think

I am learning that The Jews, Christians, Muslims, Hindus, Bhuddists only have a piece of the truth and combined they are much more powerful than their individual parts

I am learning that we are divine children
I am learning that we are all parts of the whole
I am learning that we are all connected
I am learning that the truth is
I am learning that we all inherently know the truth
I am learning that the truth takes the shape of what we think about
I am learning that we are all energy beings
I am learning that we each create our reality
I am learning that only a mind that can accept this will realize it for what it is
I am learning that there are as many different universes as there are realities
I am learning that I live in a multiverse

I am learning that the truth is powerful and does set you free
I am learning that others would have you accept their truth in order to control you

I am learning that others would have you accept only their truth because they are frightened by new realities

I am learning that in order to set yourself free you must learn to consciously leave your body and return safely and without fear.

I am learning that we are all waking up to who we are.

Hurricaine Season is over

Thank God, today marks the end of Hurricane season. It passed with no ill effects for us here in North Central Florida. I put away the NOAA radios till next year. I am glad it is over, but I did not take my cruise to Nassau. Now the price of a cruise will go up again till next hurricane season. Sadly enough I did not go the the beach this last summer. I worked pretty much and then had some other interruptions to my life. Perhaps I will take a cruise to Nassau anyway. Well at least we dodged the hurricanes this year. I am breathing a little easier this morning.

Repression

You can only repress a spirit so much, until it must lash out or break out, to find its expression. You can try but you can not bend , mold or force a spirit into a shape other than the shape it has been destined to take.

The Joy of Trying New Things

Tonight I had a conversation with a new friend. I am open to new ideas and new experiences. I am looking at old friends with new eyes so as to see them in new ways and allow them to be different from what I have previously learned about them. I even tried a new drink tonight that is banana strawberry nectar. I am surprised at how wonderful this beverage is. Its a wonderful surprise. I am an sort of old fart making new friends and I am willing to see myself in new ways as well. I am an new old Fart. LOL.

As long as I can continue to see the world with new eyes I will have excitement and energy to venture forth in my world with enthusiasm. New perspectives create excitement and adventure. This feeling of newness fuels me with fresh energy and gives me the juice that I need to get through my day. It is a joyful event for me to have my world be new again.

Blessings,

Corbin

Many Many Desires. Law of Atraction is Listening.

Today I awoke. No power in my Home. Its a very strange thing to awaken with no power. I was comforted by morning light that streamed through the open front door. I called the Power Authority. Perhaps I did not pay my Bill. I went outside to check the breaker box and called in for service. I went online and paid my bill thinking perhaps I had forgotten.

I decided I would go out for breakfast while they fixed the problem. A few minutes later my power was back on. Feeling comforted by this, I decided to play a little bit. I went online to check my newsgroups and chat room buddies. Nothing. I go through my emails and attend to business. I am not feeling ease or pleasure. Just interest and curiosity at what things I am seeing but nothing calls to me.

There is an undertow. Behind it all there is something gnawing away at me. Something that wants a voice, that wants my attention but I am needing to get my clarity about this before I can understand what it is. I am thinking about a woman. Someone who I feel much love and affection towards. She is on my thoughts and I am wondering what is going on in me. I am feeling a dis satisfaction at our most recent gathering. I am feeling that I have put myself upon her in some way. I am quietly pushing my agenda or expectation on her. Without realizing it of course, and yet I know that she must be aware of this silent pressure that I am applying. I want her to say that she is interested in a relationship but those words do not come from her lips. She speaks that she is wanting to accomplish what her intentions are. But she does not speak what those intentions are specifically.

I leave her frustrated that she will not utter the words I want to hear. I am alone. I feel longing. But I am exhausted so I console myself with the relief that sleep brings. I awaken and have clarity. I know what it is that I must do, just to set things straight. I compose a letter in which I communicate the following. Assumptions and Expectations are the two places where I get into trouble. The second thing I communicate is that, I am not indicating that it is her that I am wanting. I do indicate that it is someone like her, that I am wanting to be emotionally and physically intimate with. I feel relief as I express my truth in a honest and respectful way.

This satisfies 2 conditions. The first is it communicates my feelings towards her in a respectful and non invasive way. The second is that it tells the Universe, this or something better please. In either way, I reached a feeling of relief and have now come to be at peace with my situation.

Law of attraction is working in my Life. All is well.

A New Dawn

This Day has dawned. It is filled with promise. I feel the excitement. This day is pregnant, it is unborn. I feel the energy as I venture forth and seek out opportunities, and circumstances that lie in wait. The moments that have been orchestrated by unseen forces. All manifestations waiting to spring into existence, as I allow all good things to appear. This day, this wonderous day. I am so grateful and filled with joy as I focus on that which I am wanting. Knowing that a manager, unseen fairy's and a powerful law, all move events into place, to deliver unto me all that I have asked for. The Magic Genie awaits only to grant my fondest wish. And I am the master of all I survey, as the universe wich loves and appreciates me exists, to grant all I desire for the continuation of creation. The whole of all that is, is here and rejoices at my choices and preferences, knowing that as they are granted, a new improved state of being comes into existence. The world is my oyster, my play place, my creative laboratory. Where do I want to go today ? Who do I want to be ? What do I want to experience ?

Ask and it is given.